January with my baby

Spending time with Chris over the Christmas break just didn't cut it so I am glad I got to spend time with him many times this month.

Jan 6-8 Hayli and I went to Salt Lake for my bachelorette party. Shopping, pole, and Great Harvest. Mmmm some all time favorites right there. SHe headed back early though so I got an extra day with the soon-to-be hubby!

Jan 19-22 This was a good long weekend with my babe. I headed down with his parents Thursday night. Friday was full of shopping, complete with matching cowboy hats. Thanks for having an inner country side :)
We had two double dates one with his cousin, and another at a mission companions house. I enjoyed the time with Brennan and his wife. I felt welcomed and that I can have friends down there. There was also the craziest flash storm so I'm glad we drove back safely. (The video to prove it.)

I love all the smiles I get from this boy and the few I get in pictures even if they are blurry.

Jan 26-29 This was a surprise to see Christopher again so soon. Those few days apart though felt like forever. Friday was rough as I seriously injured my knee on the ice. I'm grateful for him being willing to pick me up from class to take me out to lunch and tell me things will be ok. We cooked a lot, spent a lot of time with family, went swimming, and cuddled. This sweet boy spoiled me all weekend. Not only did he get me flowers, but he bought tickets to A BLAKE SHELTON CONCERT FOR MY BIRTHDAY! Justin Moore and Dia Frampton will also be there. I am so excited for another weekend getaway coming up soon!

Love you so much Christopher!

1.31 Oh the laughter

Oh Sierra

Thanks for putting up with my crazy antics.

Going on dates with me.

Making me breakfast every Friday.

And today asking "Why do you look like that? Why do you sound like that?"
It was so mean. And fantastic.

And then watching this video over. and over. and over at 2 in the morning.

Love her. 

Overwhelmed

Today I feel more overwhelmed then I think I have at almost any other time in my life. Walking home after breaking down in front of a professor, I thought that now feels harder than breaking my back, and harder than a past break up. There is just this weight that's keeping me down right now until I can get everything straightened out and in control. Today I also missed the opportunity to go down to Salt Lake to learn and see clothing manufacturing. However, I think it was for the best. By being here, I was able to go to the temple. There I felt so much love, that everything will be able to be ok in the end. I'm trying to have the faith to let that happen and work as hard as I can to get there as well. I think I need to quit my job. Looking for an internship has become a part time job and I am not keeping up on school. With the new Year, I set so many resolutions to be better. I think my matra right now needs to be just keep swimming. Just keep going and do what I can. Right now I may not do everything but by consistently trying, hopefully something will come from the efforts. It's crazy how much I need Christopher. I like to refer to him as my husband since we are so close and we've been together and engaged so long. How can anyone live without their husbands? I need to be next to him. Without him calming my fears, I feel like I can't do it.